concession

Entering the Mad Men Casting Call contest reminds me of when I used to run for student council office, or when I would try out for drill team back in my adolescent years. The running part is kind of fun and new and different, but the losing is just awkward and embarrassing.

And let's just get it out there: I ALWAYS LOSE. It's cool. No self-absorbed pity parties here. I just lose a lot and I am wrong most of the time. Don't ever believe me if I tell you that that guy on tv is the same guy that we saw in a movie 3 years ago. Michael can verify - I am wrong 97% of the time.

After 31 years of losing, I am accustomed to the feeling. It is humbling and character building. I would much rather lose the Mad Men contest and have time to reflect on what sweet, incredible friends helped me try and win. Myrna the master artist and photographer, Shawna, Maggie, Jane, my dad and mom, Robyn, Josh, TJ and all you other faithful voters. I would totally rather loose and be able to thank you all than if I had won and got a big head and went to Hollywood, and once I was there, they realized that the show really needed me to be Don Draper's new, permanent secretary/ future love interest. And I would be that wonderful, mysterious woman on the show that wouldn't give him the time of day, which drove him crazy because he just couldn't have her - until maybe the last season.......

well anyway...i would rather lose and know how cool my friends and family are than win and have all those headaches of small scale stardom....200th or so out of 3975...not too bad a loss, considering my history.

I am so glad that none of you saw me in those high school drill team tryouts. Now that was embarrassing.